I Wish

I wish I could tell you everything. I wish I could tell you that you're on my mind, as always. I wish I could tell you that I'm tired of this limbo you've put me through and that I want something definitive now. I wish I could tell you that the reason why I've been so depressed lately is because of you. I wish I could tell you that I've been crying my eyes out because I'm hurt, this hurts. I wish I could tell you that I've been waiting and waiting and waiting some more and now that you're ready, I want you to choose me. I wish I could tell you that I want you, I want you so much and I want you all for myself. I wish I could tell you that I need your touch, I crave your lips, I look for your eyes, I miss your hugs, and so much more. I wish I could tell you that my feelings for you grow stronger and stronger each day that I can feel all this love overflowing out of me. I wish I could tell you all these things but I can't. I'm scared. I'm so scared.

I wish it was easy for me to talk about these things to you. I really do. I want so much to open up to you but I just can't.